Just The Way You Are

We live in a world made up of expectations,

We are slaves to the expectations of the people around us.

You are expected to look perfect,

Have perfect grades,

Have perfect behaviour,

And be perfect at everything you do.

Mediocre is not accepted here.

There is no place for that curvy girl with a beautiful heart,

Cause looks are what impress people.

No place here for that boy who is an aspiring dancer with average grades,

Cause who cares about your passion anyway,

Good grades is the only thing that matters.

There is absolutely no place here for that crazy girl with a wild soul,

Cause wild is taboo,

And a tamed soul is what is accepted.

If one of these people sound like you,

This is not the place for you.

We are expected to fulfill the expectations of others,

But our own dreams?

Nobody cares.

We’re all losing bits and pieces of ourselves,

In this rat race of fulfilling another’s expectations.

And eventually,

There is nothing left of the real you.

Your true essence is long gone.

Is that who you want to be?

A mere illusion of all their expectations.

I’d ask you to be yourself ,

And stand up for who you are.

But here I am struggling to find my own identity.

But that doesn’t stop me from fighting to be the person I believe I am.

Change is good,

But not if you lose yourself in the process of pleasing everyone else.

The skeletal remains of the old you rattles somewhere deep inside that old closet.

Begin your search,

And find yourself.

Cause you are beautiful,

Just the way you are.

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A Heartfelt Confession

My heart skipped a beat at the sound of his voice,

And when it was combined with my name,

There was no better feeling than that.

Each time I saw him,

I blushed a little more,

And smiled a little wider.

It was so evident,

That even I could feel the burning in my cheeks.

Even just the sound of his name,

Sent butterflies fluttering excitedly in the hollow of my stomach.

I just couldn’t bring myself to look into his eyes……

They seemed to hypnotize me,

And I felt lost in them,

There was so much to explore in them,

And so much more to understand.

 But now I could see beyond that too,

The sorrow,

The pain,

The confusion,

The struggle,

The sacrifice,

And the fire to achieve.

All these things which he has been hiding from the world,

Is a part of him which he has now unveiled to me.

He was one of the strongest people I have ever known,

And I’ve seen him grow up tremendously as a person,

While he also helped me grow up as an individual.

I have loved him ever since the first time we met,

But was afraid to admit it even to myself.

Afraid of getting hurt,

But he has taught me that getting hurt is a part of growing up,

It is a part of becoming stronger,

And most importantly,

A part of becoming me.

I’ve also learnt to fight a little harder,

Laugh a little louder,

Smile a little wider,

And live a little happier.

He always wore a smile on his face,

Irrespective of how fierce the battle on his insides was.

He believed in himself,

And encouraged me to push myself harder.

The confidence with which he faced life and all its challenges,

Has definitely inspired me.

He knew his strengths and weaknesses,

But he never let his weakness put him down,

He never let it over power his strengths.

And he was my biggest strength,

My source of encouragement.

I could see the responsibilities that lay ahead of him,

I would never stand in his way,

I would never hinder his responsibilities.

I will push him to reach his goals,

And fulfill his responsibilities.

Coz now,

They weren’t his alone,

They were ours.

Our Little Forever

​She was my most prized possession.

I loved her immensely,

With all my heart,

And all my soul.

We got to know each other through a mutual friend,

And in the very first sight I was head over heels in love with her.

She had an aura of joy around her,

And a very contagious smile.

Both of which she carried around with her under all circumstances,

That it became a part of her.

This drew a lot of people to her.

She had a very persistent character,

And never gave up.

She was a woman of strong will.

Her eyes were beautiful,

And her soul magical.

It was something I couldn’t get enough of,

And I couldn’t take my eyes off her.

I wanted her to be mine,

But I didn’t have the courage to ask her……

I gathered all my courage and went up to her,

To confess my love for her.

To my surprise,

She took it in good spirits,

And said that she too had to confess something to me.

She told me that she too loved me,

But was being diagnosed with cancer,

And she didn’t know how much time she had left here.

This literally tore me apart.

Why was this happening to her?

She was such a wonderful person!

And she never let her problems get in her way of helping others.

In spite of knowing that she was going to die,

She was so happy.

She stood face to face with death,

And it did not scare her.

I decided to make the best of her little time left here.

I wanted to make her feel special,

And lead a normal life like all the other women out there.

So I told her that I loved her in spite of it all,

And I wanted to marry her.

I wasn’t doing this out of pity,

But for the love I had for her.

She hesitated at first,

But agreed later.

We got married with the prayers and blessings of our loved ones.

We had a lovely time together,

The result of which was our beautiful baby girl.

And then the struggle began.

Her cancer got worse,

As it sucked the life out of her bit by bit.

I couldn’t see her like this,

But she suffered in silence.

And finally peace came to her,

As her soul departed us.

But she continues to live in our hearts,

And the hearts of many others.

I was left shattered,

With our beautiful angel she left behind for me.

I had to look after her,

And give her all the love in the world.

She was my only belonging now,

The only memory of my beloved,

And the reason why i’m still alive.

We knew we didn’t have a forever together,

But the little time we had together felt infinite.

It was our little forever.

A Dream Come True

I woke up to the bright sunlight streaming in through the windows,
I slowly sat up,

And looked around.

Immediately the previous days events came rushing into my thoughts.

We had a lot of plans for the day.

He was supposed to come home and pick me up in the morning,

And we were going to spend the entire day together.

This was something I was really looking forward to.

But he called me up to tell me that he couldn’t make it,

And I was highly disappointed.

So I decided to go some place,

And not stay home alone.

So I went over to my best friend’s place,

And fortunately she was at home.

We spent the morning together watching a movie,

And had lunch outside.

We sat in her house reviving childhood memories and school days.

It was time for me to leave,

But she said she’d accompany me home to meet my parents.

So both of us left to my house on our respective vehicles.

She stood behind me as I unlocked the door.

The minute I stepped in,

The lights went on and everyone yelled “Surprise!”.

All my friends and his friends were here,

And so was our family.

I just stood there in awe,

As my best friend walked past me to join them,

And she grinned at me.

He stood there looking at me,

With a victorious smile.

I walked towards them,

And looked around the house.

It was beautifully decorated with flowers and balloons.

My favorite song played in the back drop,

As they held the words “WILL YOU MARRY ME?” for him.

He stepped forward still smiling,

Went down on one knee,

Held a ring out for me,
And asked me if I would be his.

I said yes as tears of joy rolled down my cheeks.

We hugged and I smiled at the others blinking back tears.

He wiped my tears and pulled me forward,

And took me to a table decorated with candles and gifts.

It had a cake in between which read “Happy Birthday Love!”

“This is my birthday gift for you……”,

He whispered in my ear,

As I hugged him once again.

The rest of the evening was a buzz.

It was the most amazing birthday anyone could ask for.

Waking up to this beautiful memory made me smile.

I looked down at my ring,

And kissed it.

I felt like the luckiest girl in existence.

I had a wonderful future ahead of me,

With the most amazing guy on the planet,

The love of my life.

This life that lay ahead is definitely a dream come true.

A Forever Kind Of Love

He meant the world to me.

We were friends at first,

But we felt something more than that for each other.

We didn’t confess it though,

For the fear of losing the other.

That is how much we valued each other’s presence in our respective lives.

I love him more than anything else in this world.

It was love at first sight,

In fact love at every sight for me.

I fell deeper in love with him every time I saw him.

He was a gentleman at heart,

He knew how to treat women,

And that was the best part about him.

Every minute we spent together was very special for me.

He made me feel special,

And I felt loved.

With him,

I felt like I belonged,

And in him I found a home.

Then came the day when he confessed his love for me,

And I told him I loved him too.

It wasn’t like how it was in the movies,

Wind in our hair,

And music in the backdrop.

But it was magical in its own way,

Coz it was our special moment.

Then on it was paradise for me.

Not in the materialistic way,

But in the emotional way.

It was not the kind of relationship where you go out on dates or spend money on each other.

It was more about spending time with each other.

We prioritized love and spending quality time together.

In course of time,

We had fights and misunderstandings,

But never trust issues.

Coz love is all about trust,

And our love is what held us together.

He eventually began to distance himself from me.

And I was deeply worried.

He wouldn’t tell me what was wrong……

He then told me that he’d fallen in love with another woman.

 Was it that easy to fall out of love with one person,

As it was to fall in love with them?

For me it wasn’t.

He told me that he didn’t want to cheat me,

And that was why he was confessing this to me.

This confession only made me fall deeper in love with him,

His character.

I didn’t want to miss a guy this genuine.

But I wasn’t going to let that thought slip out of my mouth,

For the fear of complicating things,

More than it already was.

He was still a gentleman,

Coz he chose to stay honest about his feelings.

He could have two timed if he wanted to,

But he was honest both to himself and me.

Sadly things didn’t work out in his favor with the other woman.

We still had each other’s back.

I had a feeling that ours was a forever kind of love.

And I knew he would come back to me,

And I would wait for him,

For as long as it would take.

Coz I knew that our  love would bring us back together.

I Survived

It was dark,
And the road seemed to be deserted.

I thought of calling dad,

But I was just a few streets away from home……

The day had begun on a beautiful note.

I had a reunion with my high school friends……

It had been years since all of us met,

As we were all busy people now.

Busy with our own lives,

Or rather busy making our own lives.

It was really nice to take a look back,

And walk down memory lane together.

I missed the kid that I used to be,

Coz with growing up comes great responsibilities.

We spoke about our little lives over lunch,

And I was glad to see that all of us were happy with where life had taken us,

And our parents too were proud of us.

It was pretty late by the time we were done.

I took a bus back home.

My bus stop was a few streets away from home.

I got off the bus,

And slowly walked back.

I was exactly two streets away from home now.

As I turned to look back,

I saw a car at the corner of the road behind me.

I turned in front and walked ahead,

As the car came to a halt beside me.

The door opened,

And I was quickly dragged in.

With a hand covering my mouth,

To prevent me from screaming.

But I froze in fear!

It took me a while to even register what was happening around me.

For a minute I was fighting back men,

It was four on one.

I was obviously the weaker one,

And the odds were in their favor,

So they got what they wanted.

I felt numb mentally,

But was in pain physically.

They threw me back at the same spot where they had kidnapped me.

I lay there like a vegetable,

Limp and lifeless.

When I woke up,

I was in the hospital.

I was told that I was found lying on the road,

Two streets away from home,

Completely bruised and unconscious.

I was immediately rushed to the hospital,

And my parents were informed.

They quickly rushed to the hospital,

To see their little princess in the broken state she was in,

To stay by her side and comfort her.

And that day I lost the little faith on humanity that was still left in me……

I wasn’t sad,

I was extremely angry.

I was going to fight for what was mine,

And make sure they got that they deserve.

This time I wasn’t going to quit,

Not until I get my justice.

And I was proud to call myself a survivor.

Forever Mine

His eyes were the shade of coffee beans.
It was so dark,

That it reminded me of dark chocolate,

Dark, beautiful and intense.

It felt magical to look into them,

Coz of the timeless beauty it held.

His hair all wet,

And stuck to his forehead,

From the light drizzle.

He was on his knees,

With a rose in hand,

Right before me,

In the rain,

On an empty street.

And I was here,

Standing in a daze.

Yes,

We have known each other since childhood.

And he was constantly by my side,

Through every phase of life.

He has been there for me at all times.

Nursing me like a mother,

When I was upset.

Scolding me like a father,

When I was wrong.

Encouraging me to do the things I wasn’t sure of,

Like the best friend that he was.

He has played every possible role in my life,

Except for the one that he was on the verge of playing.

No one knew me as well as he did,

And no one understood me the way he did.

He’s always been putting up with all my drama and stupidity,

Without complaining the tiniest bit.

I’ve always dreamt of us together,

But end up dismissing the idea.

What if something went wrong?

I didn’t want to risk losing him for anything……

I couldn’t afford to!

He has been my backbone my entire life,

And surviving without him,

Was out of the question.

I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve a person like him.

Did I even deserve him in the first place?

To that I had no answer.

But he was here before me today,

Wanting the same thing that I did.

What was I going to tell him?

Was I going to risk it?

Even if I did,

Would it work out……?

As I thought all this through,

He waited patiently in the same position,

In the down pour.

Which was becoming heavier with every passing minute.

I looked at him with anxious eyes,

But I saw victory in his eyes.

He knew he’d won me over!

He smiled at me,

And nodded in understanding.

I told myself I could do this,

And I wasn’t going to lose him.

So I looked into his eyes,

And nodded with a huge smile.

He gave the rose to me,

Stood up,

And hugged me.

We stood there in the rain,

As I listened to the steady beating of his heart.

Which now belonged to me,

And will be mine alone forever.