An Excerpt From The Diary Of An Avid Reader

I am the quiet person that I come off to be.
I do like to keep mostly to myself.
Not because I don’t like the company of people,
But because I know what it feels like to be in the company of a good book.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have lived the most.
It is here,
That I have discovered myself.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have travelled all over the world.
It is here,
That I have met a million beautiful souls.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have experienced the diversity of various cultures,
It is here,
That I have crossed paths with people from all walks of life.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have fallen in love.
It is here,
That I have known how soul wrenching a heartbreak can be.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have learnt that sometimes you’ve got to let things go.
It is here,
That I have realized that it’s okay to give love a second chance.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have seen the magic of words work its way through me in all its splendor.
It is here,
That I have watched myself heal.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I have lived every day of my existence to its fullest.
It is here,
That I have felt every emotion deeply.

It is within the pages of these books,
That I continue to laugh,
Cry,
Love,
And dream.

It is here,
That I continue heal,
Cherish,
Celebrate,
And live.

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Ways Of The Universe

Ever wondered how things go about in this big crazy world that we live in?
Ever wondered what makes you give up something that is so important to you,
Just to be with the people you love,
And put a smile one their faces?
Ever wondered how you happened to stumble upon those people,
Time and again,
Who made you see that love was all about placing the needs of the person we love before our own?
Ever wondered how lucky you are to have a family,
That shoulders and supports you,
Throughout your life?
Ever wondered how blessed you are to be surrounded by people,
That are willing to carry your burden,
Only to make your journey of life more pleasant?
Ever wondered how you crossed paths with that stranger,
Who shows you how much you deserve to be loved and adored,
Day in and day out?
Ever wondered how you found that one person who loves and cherishes you,
From among a million other beautiful souls out there?
Ever wondered how you fell in love with that one amazing being,
For whom you are willing to give anything,
Just to see their smile reach their eyes?
Ever wondered how the magic of love has touched and healed you,
Of the wounds that you thought could never be fixed,
In places that only you knew you were hurting?
Ever wondered how all of this happens to us under the same blanket of stars,
In spite of us not knowing each other at all,
And irrespective of which corner of the world we live in?
Well,
The universe has its ways,
Of giving you things that you genuinely yearn for with all your heart,
Of bringing together something that is meant to be.
Call it fate,
Call it destiny,
But love?
it’s a beautiful thing.

Bliss Of Today

What if there is no tomorrow?
Would you still treat people like trash with the uncertainity of being able to apologize in a non existent tomorrow?

What if you don’t have another chance?
Would you still not appreciate the people you love in spite of all that they’ve done for you?

What if there is no tomorrow?
Would you still leave your relationships as torn and tattered as they’ve turned out to be over the course of time?

What if you don’t have another chance?
Would you still not let love into your life and stop it from sweeping you off your feet with its unbreakable magic?

What if there is no tomorrow?
Would you still hurt his feelings by saying those awfully heartless things that you can’t ever take back?

What if you don’t have another chance?
Would you still be wallowing in the regrets of a lost yesterday?

What if there is no tomorrow?
Would you still be worrying about the mysteries of yet another unborn day?

Live everyday like it is your last,
Capturing the essence of the smallest of things.
Loving,
Forgiving,
Apologizing,
Thanking,
Dreaming,
Chasing,
Celebrating.

Live in the bliss of today,
Like there was no yesterday,
Like there will be no tomorrow.

Warmth Of A Million Splendid Suns

There was something about your smile,
That always seemed to have me enthralled.
It was always so open, inviting and rejuvenating,
That it seemed to capture in it an essence of your warm persona.

There was something about the way you smiled,
That it seemed to have won a thousand battles.
It never seemed to fade away,
Not even when the tears at the corner of your eyes threatened to spill over.

There was something about your smile,
That seemed to put a smile on everyone who crossed paths with you.
It was so contagious,
That no force of nature seemed to be able to stop it.

There was something about the way you smiled,
That it was determined to spread only love.
It was always so encouraging,
That no form of negativity seemed to stand a chance against it.

There was something about your smile,
That seemed to have the warmth of a million splendid suns.
It only spread joy in its waking,
That no pain would ever dare to harm.

There was something about the way you smiled,
That seemed to brighten everything in its path.
Like the breakthrough of the first rays of sunlight after a heavy downpour,
Like the calm after a storm.

One Last Time

As I walk into these gates again,
A flood of memories wash over me.
Every nook and corner of this now empty place,
Has a story to narrate,
And a memory to be relived.
I walk past this chapel,
That has heard a million prayers for help,
And witnessed even more silent tears of sorrow.
I walk past this playground,
The place that not just moulded athletes,
But also taught a lot of us that life was all about picking yourself up every time you fall down.
I walk past this stage,
That taught me to believe in myself,
And grab the chances that came my way.
I walk past this library,
That has witnessed more of our whispered secrets,
Than all the books they’ve ever held.
I walk past these classrooms,
That were once full of laughter,
And full of life.
I walk past these blackboards,
That didn’t just impart knowledge in us,
But also taught us never to let our grades define us.
I walk past these benches,
That have beautiful stories carved into them,
That will live here forever.
I walk past these corridors,
Reliving childhood,
Reliving memories,
Reliving laughter,
Reliving tears,
Reliving friendships,
Reliving fights,
Reliving life.
I walk past these memories,
Of strangers that turned into friends,
And friends that turned into strangers.
Of friends that turned into family,
And friendships that turned into memories.
Some sweet,
Some bitter,
But nevertheless worth reminiscing.
I walk hand in hand with nostalgia,
Wishing I could go back in time,
Just to relive those days one last time.
I now walk past this place,
That is home to me,
And will forever be.

Lost Cause

I’ve began to be extra cautious before letting an individual enter the walls I’ve built around myself,
I guess being judged over and over does that to you.
I’ve tried changing my appearance,
And the habits that were once a part of who I was,
For I have fallen out of love.
I’ve fallen out of love with myself,
I’ve fallen out of love with my once beautiful self.
In an existence full of battles,
Being placed under a microscope that constantly judges and scrutinizes you,
Does not make anything easier.
I now stand at the threshold to the doors of depression,
With the intensity of the battle weighing me down.
I stand with one leg in and one out of the threshold,
While I fight this exhausting battle,
The battle of life.
Pushing me further away from the doors of happiness,
Pushing me further into the doors of depression.
The battle has been so threatening,
That I’ve forgotten what happiness feels like,
I’ve forgotten what hearty laughter feels like,
I’ve forgotten what peaceful sleep feels like,
I’ve forgotten what a content meal feels like,
i’ve forgotten what life feels like.
While the battle continues to rage on,
Pushing me further into this strange but familiar world,
My world comes crashing down on me.
How much longer can I hold on?
How much longer can I hold these doors open?
How much longer can I keep fighting?
I did not know.
And just then in the fraction of a second,
The resilient doors of depression,
Broke free of my human hold,
And snapped shut right before my eyes,
Shutting me out from the world of happiness,
While I helplessly watched on,
With outstretched arms.
Reaching out to the doors in one last attempt,
I let out a silent cry of grief,
Knowing that now life was out of reach,
Help was out of reach,
Happiness was out of reach,
And now I was a lost cause.
Perhaps I’d never know what is to smile,
Ever again……

Everything I Want To Be

They called me fat and flabby,

And told me that I’d look a lot prettier if I lost a little weight,

Like as though fat is the synonym of ugly.

 

They called me chubby and plumpy,

Sugarcoating their thoughts that were already laced with venom.

Little did they know,

That the dimensions of my body was too wide to fit into their narrow minded society.

 

They called me dark and dusky,

And told me that I was way too beautiful for someone with this skin tone.

Like as though the night isn’t just as beautiful as the day if not more.

 

They called me pale and pasty,

Confining my abilities within the color of my skin.

Little did they know,

That the shackles of this judgmental society was not strong enough to restrain me from being who i wanted to be.

 

We are all being sorted into categories,

Tagged and labeled,

Put into little compartments,

And shut into the closet of judgment,

Curbing our growth,

And restraining our freedom.

 

We are all being judged,

Humiliated,

Shamed,

And shunned out of the sanctuary of the very existence of our souls,

Forcing us to hate our very own bodies,

Forcing us to hate our very own existence.

 

I do not fit into this society,

I wasn’t what they were looking for,

For they all wanted tall, fair and beautiful,

But I was much more than all of that put together.

 

I was brave,

I was compassionate,

I was loving,

I was considerate.

 

I was everything I wanted to be,

And I was everything they would never be.